Oops

Oh geesh, I got a call last night and it seems that my post yesterday was a complete misunderstanding. The ADHD in me does leave my writing somewhat confusing. I sometimes hop from subject to subject and my writing gets inter-woven by interpretation and can leave even myself confused, even when I proof read it all three times. I should have got my lazy butt up and deleted that post last night.

I also had a new commenter on here a few days ago and with the internet, things can just get mixed up and then I get defensive, another issue I need to work on LoL Even my issues have issues of their own ; )

Tis a very wierd day here today, I'm liking this not so seasonal weather, however right now it's 65 degrees outside, rain and makes me wonder if we will get some lightning and thunder today. It was warmer at 7AM this morning then it was yesterday afternoon. El Nino is making for a very mild winter which I am enjoying to the max, the lower heating bills are equally welcomed.

I'm so bored and restless it's hard to sleep for very long. I imagine my first week back to work will help with that and get into my routine, being the creature of habit that I am at this age.

I used to be so spontanious, not that it was such the best thing, but it did work at that time. Getting older and set in your ways is so true. I'm so used to the same wore out TV reruns that I have watched for years, classic though, MASH, Sienfeld among some others. Since I've been off work I have started watching some different shows that are actually reruns now, I'm just way behind. I guess I started watching The Big Bang Theory about 3 months ago and I started watching My Name Is Earl about a month ago. Both are right up my alley. I like stupid funny!

So anyway, yesterday is forgotten and today is a new day to continue moving forward with expectations that I have set for myself. I HAVE to lose some weight, and if I can get back on track I want to stop smoking, but right now I have enough on my plate LoL no pun intended~! : )

I just need to remind myself at times that things will work out and everything will be fine, however it's so easy to let negitive thoughts get in the way. My best guess on my current anxiety should be put to rest once my employment is confirmed, they have only one job ad on Monster.com right now and that is for a general manager. I imagine they are waiting on future interviews to allow the future general manager to be present during the interviews of their future staff.

The job for general manager has been online for a month, it's very hard to find really sincere skilled labor in this area, I'm sure they know this already and it is wise for them to get the right staff in place without just hiring a bunch of people and see if they work out. In my case my history as a chef here is a real plus, I know the people that frequent the bars and restaurants on a regular basis and have a good relationship with those folks as putting out great food with pride.

I have the requirements for a management position, however after my last employer I may be just a little gun shy on a job being responcible for the whole staff as well as the money. I just don't need all that stress in the beginning. I am inquring about the Sous Chef position which means, "Under the chef," meaning I would be at most just have to make sure quality is maintained and food is handled in a safe manner to prevent food bourne illness(food poison).

If the line cook position pays enough I may just settle for that in the beginning so I can learn their system and the way they prepare things in accordance with the corporate chef's recipes to maintain consistancy. I'm used to jobs where I just walk in and do my thing, here I'm going to have to make thing the way we are told until I can maybe offer up some dishes as a nightly special to see if it's practical in this setting. Then as time goes by if a better position opens up and I feel comfortable about it I can just jump on it then.

Just thinking about this too much as I have just posted here is part of my problem, worrying. That too shall pass, for now I think that's enough for one day. Hope all is well and happy : ) Peace~!